I moved into a new condo recently, it's exciting. Perfect for me, and because it's mine I can paint, hang stuff, and truly unpack for the first time in years. I've moved around the past 3 years, never planned on staying anywhere more than a year, so I never bothered with completely unpacking.
Unpacking surprised me, it was a whirlwind of emotions. Mind, some of these things I have had in boxes for 8 years or more and just cart them from place to place. I found a box of old memorabilia, and some was sad, happy, and some flat out hilarious.
Now, by far the funniest (and saddest) thing I found was the journal I received for my 13th birthday and started writing in the summer before 8th Grade. That was one of the most traumatic years of my life, a lot happened in my family that would change everything for the rest of our lives. I'm guessing my mom bought me the journal because she knew I loved to write, it wasn't one of those cheesy diaries but a journal with 300 pages neatly bound with pretty lines. Told me how writing feelings is the best way to let them go, address them and eventually talk about them.
I kept this journal with semi frequent regularity all the way through high school. I thought it would be funny, to share some of the comical ones. I will try not to correct my punctuation (when I journal it spills out of me, so punctuation isn't key at the time, but some corrections will have to be made so it's not a huge run on sentence.)
Inside Cover:
MISTY - My Intimate Secret Teller Year-Round.
First Page:
If you are reading this, I will know, you will feel horrible for being such a horrible nosy person that you will never be able to look at me in the eyes EVER! Even if all you read is this first page, you are evil!!!
June 3rd, 1991
Dear Misty,
I love you! I love this book, I'm going to write in it EVERY SINGLE DAY! I PROMISE! I had the best birthday EVER! It was a surprise birthday party. I swear I had no clue AT ALL. Jo took me down to the A&W to get a shake or snack. I love their mini-tacos. As soon as I got home, full of oreo milkshake and mini tacos. Everyone yelled SURPRISE!! There were so many people there, like 35 people including Justin!! I think we will go out in 8th grade! I will keep my balloon forever!
I can't believe Jo invited Sharry and Christine! Who does that? I mean those bitches wrote a list of 100 reasons why they didn't like me, because I got a new Columbia ski outfit for ski club. THEN called me to tell me the list, I told them to grow up and hung up on them. Then they called back and said, "You ignernt (sooo how she said it, stupid) bitch, how dare you hang up on us!" so I was like, "Whatever, you think I'm stupid enough to sit on the phone and listen to why people don't like me. And look up ignorant, because you obviously don't know the meaning and then look up irony. If you know what a dictionary is." then hung up again. I was so mad at them B-I-T-C-H-E-S! I mean really, who puts the top reason for not liking someone because I don't drink all my milk in a glass and that I have better clothes. Not my fault my mom cares enough to take me shopping. So wasn't happy they were there.
My mom decided to leave with her boyfriend, she went to spend the night at his house. Gross. Jo already had the okay to stay the night, her mom probably thought my mom would be there all night. Soooo... Jo and I decided to take my moms car out driving!! She totally left the keys and gas!! I've only driven with mom or to the restaurants to pick up dinner, but we couldn't help ourseslves. We headed out of town, but we took the back way so we didn't have to pass her house, if her mom saw the Probe then she'd think my mom wasn't home. We both took turns, it was so fun! THEN we thought we would drive on the freeway to the junction and turn around and come back home. 75 seemed really really fast and this big semi truck was driving fast behind us and I got really scared so I decided to slow down to 45 so he could pass me easily, he was so rude honked and flipped us off out the window. I was trying to be nice. Whatever. We took the country road in to town cause I didn't like the freeway. Then went home and watched Pretty Woman, "I'm not wearing any pantyhose!"
Mom didn't notice anything about us taking the car! Jo decided we are going to try to take her dad's Dodge out next time.
Bye Misty!
Jessica
June 29th, 1991
I have the BIGGEST secret EVER!! Jo, Heather and I have been sneaking out at night when they stay over. We get our bikes put on dark clothes and when cars drive by we pull over and hide on peoples lawns. Sometimes we go to Lee's house, his mom works nights sometimes. Last time they got mad cause I tripped on an can and it was noisy. Well hello! It was dark! I told Justin about it, he said sometime I should invite him. SO I DID! BUT I didn't have Jo and Heather with me! It was really cold so he gave me his coat, then we went to the dugout and sat on top of it and watched the stars, HE HELD MY HAND! I wanted him to kiss me, I think he wanted to too cause I was sitting on his lap with his coat around me and his cheek next to mine. He asked me if I'd kissed anyone before, and I felt bad saying yes, then he asked me if it was Lee. I was like, um noo, why would he think that. I told him it was last summer at my dad's. He probably didn't believe me because who says that?
But I didn't want to give him more detail, and tell the truth that I was going out with a boy named Jeremy and I kissed his best friend, then I kissed him... IN THE SAME NIGHT! Then decided I wanted Randy over a rigged eeny-meenie-miney-moe picking match. Woo, Randy and I kissed a lot that summer, til dad said he'd shoot him if he caught him kissing me again. then he broke up with me. Said his MOM said he couldn't have a girl friend. Really? So I went back out with Jeremy, but he wasn't a good kisser so I told him MY dad said I couldn't go out with boys.
Back to JUSTIN. I really think this is what love feels like, it has to, I wish he wasn't so shy. But he's soooo cuuuute! And soooo sweeet!
July 25th, 1991
Justin is going with Tara, Heather couldn't wait to come over and tell me they were in love. They were at Lo-Boys playing video games with pizza and holding hands. I said it didn't matter cause I liked someone else too. She knows I was lying, but didn't say anything to me about it.
My dog is playing over at his house with smokey, and I know he will bring him home when it gets dark. I just hope he doesn't bring her too.
I miss my dad, it's been 7 months to the day, I wish nothing changed and I was at his house for the summer kissing Randy. I'd even take Jeremy at this point. That won't happen. I will never see any of my summer friends at dad's ever again. Will I ever see dad again?
August 15th, 1991
Bummer, summer is almost over. Been a ton of fun!! I'm so over Justin! What was I thinking anyway, he's way too tall anyway. I heard that Lee likes me and that's why Justin asked if we kissed. Lee is cute but he is always hanging out with Ryan, who is so mean to me. He spent all last year gleeking on my in math class. The principal said he probably just has a crush. I know we are country, but what does he live with a pack of llamas? Eww!
Potential 8th Grade Boys I Might Go Out With
1. Martin - the new guy from North Dakota! SOO Cute!
2. Keith - He just seems like more of a friend, but everyone likes him.
3. Justin (Just in case, we are neighbors and some times things change. Probably not, so over him)
4. Brad - I heard his voice dropped and he got buff from haying over the summer. As long as he doesn't try to wear that first year mustache thingy that looks all gross.
5. Rob - He lives across the street, we could totally sneak out together!
THE END
I was going to post more, but this has potential for content. The journal ends in 1996, there are so many cute stories. I promise to post more!
